This quotation, from Theodore Roosevelt, argues that comparing your work, your life, or whatever else will only serve to make you unhappy. It does and whilst you shouldn’t it’s human nature to sometimes focus on the negative.
This is how I’m feeling at the moment regarding running and contemplating doing another marathon. Seeing other peoples positive runs making me jealous as they seem so much more advanced than me. Especially being in the grip of girl flu (much more potent than the male equivalent), the fear i am losing any fitness gained and feeling as if I have put on weight. Thinking that resting will make me fat. Actually if I just took a moment I would realize what a load of bollocks that is. There is a rule of thumb that if you are unwell from the neck up, then it is perfectly safe to exercise. My body on the other hand completely disagrees with this.
Do I want to get back onto the marathon treadmill (pun intended), trying to fit in runs especially the valuable long ones. Beating myself up because I’ve not crammed in the miles, I’m not sure. Marathon training is a lifestyle, finding yourself at the mercy of a training plan and spending a lot of time in my trusty trainers. Every waking thought is about running, thinking when am I going to squeeze in that training run, in between being a very busy social butterfly. Am I ready for the tantrums I have with myself on the longer runs or when I’ve not been able to achieve what I’d planned in my head.
The positive is, when I do go out running now, I’m enjoying it as much as this is possible. I love the feeling of the blood pumping around my body, makes you feel alive. It’s always better when you’re in the shower afterwards and those endorphins have kicked in. I’m enjoying mixing the running up with my newly founded HIIT (high intensity interval training) class. It is so hard at times and I have never sweated so much but I love it. I even tried a crossfit session but the fact I couldn’t lift my arms for 3 days afterwards was not something I was in a rush to repeat.
A friend said you’ve been there done that (4 times) you have nothing to prove. I think in the back of my mind I still have the burning ambition that I want to do a sub 4 hour marathon. It’s there niggling at me taunting me. Maybe not next year but one year I am going to do that.
Look forward to your runs – anticipation of a run is much better than regretting not doing one at all.