You have shown me how strong you are. At the beginning of 2017 you were coughing and spluttering and you were not in a good way. I was frustrated with you for not being able to do much exercise. I am sorry about that.
Slowly you rebuilt yourself getting stronger each week, as I pushed you. We started the training plan for the marathon, you coughed and calf muscles twinged but I took it slower with you so as not to injure you.
We high fived as we got stronger, getting more reps in at HIIT class, getting more miles in. The brain tries to derail us with it’s over thinking, ruminating over what if. Brain we have had this before, be kinder to us, it’s ok not to solve the problems of the world, it’s ok to feel sad angry upset that this body is never going to produce another body. Brain, you will tell the heart that it will feel better one day, acceptance will happen.
Clothes are fitting better, I do apologise for putting you on the sad step of the weighing scales but it was good news, 1 stone gone. We still have wobbly bits but they are the fun bits, strong not skinny. I think I enjoy all the things which are bad for me to be skinny. I’m Sorry about that.
It is nearly time for your big test of running the London Marathon, we can do this. TBH I think we are in good shape, the best we have been for this task. Let’s go out and enjoy it. What do you think?
I promise you can have a slight rest next week.
Lots of love